The count-down is coming to an end, and there are only two days left for school, I always told my friends that I know we're gonna miss school..but to feel this much sadness, that's what I never had in mind. The Idea of the "school is over" is hunting me every minute now. It sure isn't going to be easy to wake up every morning without having something to do..some place to go or even a uniform to wear..I know that people say college is very similar to school, but it's not exactly the same, I feel like I'm gonna be lost after school finishes, specially that until now I still haven't decided what to study next, some of you might think I'm only exaggerating regarding the school matter, but that's really how I feel, well after 12 years I think it wud be strange not to feel this way.
I keep thinking about my teachers and my friends and suddenly I feel no hate for anyone of them, suddenly I feel like I can forgive any friend of those who treated me bad one day. I don't know if I'd like to turn back in time or have to spend another year in school, I mean the exams were like hell and will always be, I know in my heart there's nothing can be done about it, but I just wish that somehow I can still be young and have the same silly teachers, friends and school problems and concerns..maybe it's the fear of responsibility, but again I don't think so..I was never afraid of responsibility.
School has always been the biggest and the most important part in my life, and when I imagine how things are gonna be after the school is over I see nothing but emptiness, I just can't assimilate the idea of finishing school..I can't.